... of feeling broken ... of never having anything nice to say about myself ... of having one health problem after another ... of being afraid all the time … of being tired Some days I don’t want to deal with reality. All I want is to shut my eyes and go somewhere else. Somewhere, … Continue reading I’m Tired…
I've had injuries before: popped ribs, broken toes, tendinitis in both knees. Yes, I was nervous when I returned to training, but nothing like I've gone through recently. For those two or three of you who don't know, 7 months ago, I dislocated my patella during a training session. I was attempting to past open … Continue reading Psychology of an Injury
As 2018 came to an end, I’m a little torn whether I want the year to end. Honestly, this wasn’t my shining year. It was filled with great highs and greater lows. I’m not one to ever say I want a do-over, but with 2018 I would like a do-over. There is a risk in … Continue reading As one door closes, it is bound to hit you in the ass….
Several weeks ago I learned a lesson in auto care. Well, it wasn’t so much a lesson but accepting the fact my 12-year-old car needs extra TLC. As I was fretting over my car, I could help to notice the similarities between maintaining an older car and maintaining my aging body. I know this is … Continue reading Diet
Before I begin, I want to clarify something, Depression sucks. And Depression is different for each person. Not all of us feel the same or deal with it the same. This blog is about My Depression and how I cope. The past couple months, okay the last year hasn’t been easy for me, and with … Continue reading My Depression
When I was younger, I would say, “I’m my own worse critic.” Now that times have changed, I now say, “I’m my own worse troll.” When I do something right, the first thing I think about is how could I have done that better. I wonder if this is my lack of confidence talking … Continue reading Fear
Original blog from March 2011 I had an interesting thought a while back and yes I do think contrary to popular belief. I was at a tournament watching the women compete, and I thought, “Where do they get their confidence? At what point in their life did they realize there wasn’t anything they couldn’t do?” … Continue reading Confidence